Birthdays are milestones in the story of life but, most tend to get lost in a haze of celebrations (pre-Internet era) and texting "thank you" notes these days.
Today I stopped midway to say thanks to the universe.
Why the universe?
Because, I have now with my slightly cracked-opened mind and heart (it happens as you age) with the "light" coming in through the chinks, I have realized that salvation lies in merging with "The One".
What is "The One"?
That can be interpreted in several ways, one God, one soul, the eternal world. Somewhere where there is harmony and peace. It could also be in a corner of this world or on Moon - who knows?
So basically, after all these eventful decades, I have decided to choose love over war.
No. That certainly doesn't make me a Hippie. But, it means for sure that I am more at peace with myself than I was in my younger self. I am aware of my strengths, I know I am emotional and how to hide it like I have learnt how to hide belly fat and I have decided that only rats run in races. I am NOT a rat!
I know that I am unique and capable of a lot of things that others find very difficult to do and many that I cannot. But, that is fine. I know someone else is better equipped to do it and that is their forte. I am not ashamed of not being able to take up that job.
I like it that I don't know everything. It means I am sane and not a control freak. But, I also know that I can pick up most things pretty fast because I have a curious mind.
Many people hate me but, that is their problem. I care only for those who have seen me through thick and thin.
This is the reason why I want to make another list of thank yous and send it out to the universe. So, here's my list:
Thank you universe for:
1) Wisdom to understand myself and my drawbacks and not feel bad about it
2) Wisdom to empathize but not get swept up by the feeling
3) My human self which comes pre-fitted with the best equipment like, the limbs to run and pick things with, tongue to taste, eyes to see and appreciate, ears to hear and understand meaning of each and every noise and the direction it is coming from and for being the perfect place to perch my glasses on. The nose to smell - danger, food and news! For the brain that takes care of the body, for my stomach, liver, kidneys and every bone in my skeleton. My teeth and nails, hair and skin that is so fragile that I HAVE to wear nice clothes to protect it.
4) My parents and family, because of whom I stay happy and calm
5) My friends and like-minded souls who never forget to give me a hand when I am falling
6) My books and all the writers who have written them with faith, wisdom and filled them with hours of entertainment
7) Movies that never fail to mesmerize me with their visualization that brings characters live on screen
8) Random people who never cease to amaze me with their kindness and warmth
9) Ice cream that keeps me going in Summer when my birthday comes and with it Summer vacations because of which I never got to celebrate in school. It used to feel like tragedy then
10) Food because it can kill the pain of even the worst break-ups
11) Art because it can heal any wound - emotional or physical and help you look and feel good (will explain in detail another time)
12) Teachers for being around always to show the way
13) Babies for demonstrating unconditional love
14) My inner being that shows me the way - this one is impossible to explain but, I swear I am not bi-polar. I took several online tests to check
15) My curious nature that allows me to live everyday counting a hundred small victories rather than one huge failure
I thank the universe for giving me all that is beautiful on Earth and for making those awfully painful cracks in my mind and heart to let the light in.
And finally, thank you all for reading this. May your life be happy and may everyone learn to count their blessings.
Love and light!